HOSPTIAL stay

Yes you read that right. Jessica was put in the hospital for an overnight stay. Why you ask? Well she spiked a fever (101.8) on Wednesday and I called the doctor to see how much Tylenol to give her. He then informed me that I needed to bring her in. I said okay well we will see you at the emergency room and he said, no you need to bring her to the 3rd floor and we will admit her. He then told me that babies her age do not run fever unless something is wrong. I was freaked..... She wasn't though.....
This is me and Jessica in the front yard 2 weeks ago. She loves that darn chair. See, she is all smiles. Loves it I tell you. Right before check-in. Daddy is getting her calmed down.Getting ready for the blood work.What do you know.... She is still all smiles.Daddy kept her calm though.God I love her.The dreaded IV. I didn't want to go thru all o this anymore.
Sucking her thumb, do you see that. She doesn't like the binki for now.
Danny cuddling up before we leave
Just a side note, I am not quite ready to tell you anymore but I have lost 12 lbs since giving birth. This is something cool during this bad time. I can tell in this picture. My face is starting to look thin. Woooo hooooo.

Here's Jess!

Hello mommies favorite people. I thought I would get on here and tell you what has been going on. Mommy is so tierd from being at work and missing me all day, she just can't open that picture thing she calls a computer at night. To be honest, I won't let her. Shhhh don't tell her but I missed her so much all day that I don't want her to do anything but hold me at night. I have learned that the more I cry, the faster she picks me up. I love to have staring contests with her and daddy, see....... When they pick me up, I am all smiles. I don't smile much during the day for my mi-mi cause I have to save all the good stuff for mommy, daddy and bubba. This is my famous goofy grin. lol

"I so mad at my bubba right now cause he went to camp and left me for a whole week. I could just beat him up right now. I guess I will just have to love on mommy and daddy more.

I want to show off how big I have gotten. I weighed 11.5 lbs today at the doctor. Mommy has stopped crying over me getting bigger. I think it was because daddy said the alternative was to stop feeding me... OH NO YOU DON'T.

See how much I love my bubba. I like to sleep on his chest. He doesn't snore as bad as daddy.

I wanted to tell you that I heard mommy talking to daddy and he told her that he didn't mean to make her feel left out or unattractive. He said that she could put me in my bed a couple of nights a week (WTH!! not funny) so that they could have some cuddle time. I also heard daddy call a Hotel and make a reservation for him and mommy. (what does that mean?) Mommy is not crying like she was before and I think that is good. I am getting better with her being gone all day long and I try to make her feel very special at night when she gets to pick me up. I love my mommy and I don't like it when she is upset. Mommy tells me that she likes the people she works with but she loves me and wishes she could be home with me. I love her too and I wish she could to but I like seeing my mi-mi and I like getting out of the house. I also like all of the new stuff mommy buys and she said that if she was not working, I couldn't have all of those cute cloths... Oh wait she said something about not being able to make the house note if she wasn't working to. I am not for sure.

Alright, I am tired and need a nap. I will pop mommy and tell her to post an update soon.

Baby blues and almost 6 weeks

OMG! my little wonderful, beautiful girl is almost 6 weeks. This is the point to where the crying begins. Yes there have been tears for today and for the days to come, I am sure. You see, I am going to my 6 week check up on Monday at 11:30 which will be followed by a note that will allow me to go back to work. I will then have to go out to the benefits office and turn it in. I will then have to go home and spend my last few hours loving on my baby girl. The next morning will start at 4 with a feeding my wonderful baby and then jump into the shower, followed by getting the hubby up so that we can leave at 5. I better rethink this and get up at 3:30 cause I still have to pack lunches and make the morning coffee. We have to be out of the door by 4:50 and drive 2 miles to MIL and drop off the baby. I will make is quick so that I don't cry over her.

I then have to be work and in the gate by 5:30. I will sit at my desk and think about my baby girl and how she is still sleeping. At 7 my boobs will tell me that she wants to eat. I will not get to pump until after the staff meeting and so I can't pump till 8. I will call MIL after that and so the tears will start again. The first week I will be getting off at 11. I am working my way into this.

I am not looking forward to this at all. I really am crying right now over this. Okay on to the next thing getting to me right now. I am 11 lbs under the weight that I was the day I went into labor. I am proud of this. VERY proud of this. My husband, however has not even noticed. I feel like the most UNsexy woman alive. I don't know how many of you know what I mean but my DH has no interest in romance... you know what I mean. Plus I should say that I am still slightly bleeding so I am not interested in this either but I feel that the kisses are short and quick. I don't know that I can explain this but I just feel neglected. I am jealous of watching DH and his little princess and listening to him tell her how beautiful she is and what am I?, chopped liver. I hope I don't sound stupid but I hoping that someone will understand and tell me how to deal with it. I will talk more about other issues like poor milk supply and taking supplements to help. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Sometimes, I wish I could just keep the tissues around......... lol

I just wanted to drop in for just a moment and let you know that all is GREAT!!! I really will post tomorrow but for now, our little princess is 1 month old and I can't belive it. Ain't she just the cutest..... lol.....

Jessica's story

Ok I finally have just a moment to write this so I think I should take advantage. I will start with the birth story. I warn you that it is short. lol.

I had been having mild contractions (ones that would just catch you off guard but not stop you in your tracks) all day on Sunday. We all went to the flea market and walked around. I was uncomfortable but nothing too bad. I laughed and even ordered a dress for Jess. Jeff and I were frustrated as she was teasing us again. Contractions were not steady and when they were they never lasted more than an hour and as soon as I would get in the truck to go to the hospital, they would stop.

On Monday I had a doctors appt at 1:45 and so I thought I would just go in and we would schedule Friday's induction. I had pains that morning but again, nothing steady and nothing too hard. We went in and laughed that we were going to the local Waffle house afterwards as I was starving. lol. While having the exam, I could tell that there was something different about the way the doctor was touching me and so when we went into the office to talk to him, I was shocked when he said that I was between 5 and 6 and we needed to go to the hospital to "get this over with". J and I were crying and laughing and getting all excited. We went to get our son from school and it was funny when I went in the office to check him out and there was about 10 women in there freaking out that I was going to have a baby in the next few minutes and I was so calm. I mean I still was not feeling anything. We got to the hospital admission and we told the woman that I was in labor, only to have her make me sit and wait for 20 minutes. I knew that my doctor was there and waiting but we had to wait. Finally they told me to just go to L&D. Come to find out L&D had been expecting me and called down to see if I was there and when told that I was, they told them to send me up.... I was in labor.... duh!!!

Once in there, I got and IV at 2:30 and then I had to get a quick bag of fluids before my epidural. I was so happy to see the "happy dr" cause I was ready to get the Pitocin and get the show on the road. I got the epidural and knew from the get go that there was something wrong. It was not what I had done research on. There was actual pain and not pressure. I told him but he just joked it off and continued to flirt with the nurse. I breathed thru the pain and continued to pray. They nurse (whom I love) then turned up the Pitocin from 2 to 10 and the contractions started right away and were 2 minutes apart. I struggled thru the pain and kept telling them that I was feeling everything. The "happy dr" came back and gave me a "booster". Well it lasted about 5 minutes and then it was on again. My dr. came in to check on me and realized right away that I was doing this naturally. He asked me if I wanted pain meds in my IV and I was adimate that I didn't. I had nightmares with our son's birth and I was not going back. I told him that I could do this and I could breath thru them. My contractions were not 30 seconds apart and hard as all get out. His nurse (whom I again, love) told him that I was doing great with my breathing and that she thought I would be fine. My dr. was so sweet. He told me that I had waited too long for her and now was the time and he was sure that I could do it.

We got our son in there and he went to hide in the bathroom for the actual delivery and then it was time to push. I pushed once and I am here to tell you that it felt as though the doctor had his hands in there and holding her in. I couldn't push past him. I started to panic for about 30 seconds with the raising of my voice saying that I couldn't do it. DH says that I never raised my voice and that I was always in control but I was not for sure of that. lol. I pulled it together and prayed out loud for strength to get thru it. I then ( and I promise you I remember this) lifted my head and told the doctor that if he would get his fingers out of me, I could push my baby girl out. Even the nurse gave me a look of shock. He did what I asked and i pushed and her head was out. I stopped and then I pushed for her body. That was the 3 pushes and she was here. It was just like I wanted, she cried and they put her on my chest. I was crying, so was DH and so was the MIL. It was the best. I apologized over and over again and the dr told me that I didn't need to. I learned later that he was only trying to stretch me so I didn't tear and since I wouldn't let him help, I tore and needed 8 stitches. I still felt horrible for the way I acted. He said I was fine.

Jess was born at 5:28 so almost exactly 3 hours after my IV, she was here. My time in the hospital was great. I would have to tell you later my stay story. My nurses were the best. Okay not some but still those were not that bad. The pictures are me right after the birth. I really felt great. I mean, I just gave birth but I felt great. Then there is the first pic of Jess and then a new one just for you to look at our beauty. I am so happy to have her and I thank God every day that she is here. It was worth the journey.

On the breast feeding front, I am pumping and giving it to her in a bottle. That is working great for us. More on that as well later. haha.

The beast, I mean breast

Wow, I am telling you, I was not expecting the breast beast. let me explain, I am not a little woman. I have a full figure and wear a size 16 normally. Well with that said, I do not have small breasts normally. I usually wear a 40 DD and when I got pregnant, by the time I was 6 months, I was up to a 42 G. Oh yes you read that right. Well now with the engorging breasts, I have no clue what size they are but I can tell you that they put Dolly to shame. I seriously think I am bigger than she is. It is horrible. As for the breast feeding, well Jess had low blood sugar when she was born and so in order to keep it up, they told me that she needed the formula but they all reassured me that I would still be able to breast feed. While this is true, I am having serious issues with the engorgement and the tightness in the nipples. I have to expel some mild so that she can latch. Although sometimes this still does not help. I also have to have DH massage them while I am pumping just to get relief. He is the best!!!! I will have to post more about him later. I so have to post her birth story and as short as it will be, I just haven't stopped to look at the notes. haha. Any help you can give would be appreciated.

Now, for why you really came. lol.

Jessica Leeann

I would like to introduce you to the most beautiful girl I have ever held in my arms. (I know all of us moms think this) hehe.

She was born with a great delivery (really, even though the epidural didn't take!!) I will post more later and post the birth story later but for now, I am tierd and trying to pump. lol. Thank you all for your emails and your support. I love you all.