Baby blues and almost 6 weeks

OMG! my little wonderful, beautiful girl is almost 6 weeks. This is the point to where the crying begins. Yes there have been tears for today and for the days to come, I am sure. You see, I am going to my 6 week check up on Monday at 11:30 which will be followed by a note that will allow me to go back to work. I will then have to go out to the benefits office and turn it in. I will then have to go home and spend my last few hours loving on my baby girl. The next morning will start at 4 with a feeding my wonderful baby and then jump into the shower, followed by getting the hubby up so that we can leave at 5. I better rethink this and get up at 3:30 cause I still have to pack lunches and make the morning coffee. We have to be out of the door by 4:50 and drive 2 miles to MIL and drop off the baby. I will make is quick so that I don't cry over her.

I then have to be work and in the gate by 5:30. I will sit at my desk and think about my baby girl and how she is still sleeping. At 7 my boobs will tell me that she wants to eat. I will not get to pump until after the staff meeting and so I can't pump till 8. I will call MIL after that and so the tears will start again. The first week I will be getting off at 11. I am working my way into this.

I am not looking forward to this at all. I really am crying right now over this. Okay on to the next thing getting to me right now. I am 11 lbs under the weight that I was the day I went into labor. I am proud of this. VERY proud of this. My husband, however has not even noticed. I feel like the most UNsexy woman alive. I don't know how many of you know what I mean but my DH has no interest in romance... you know what I mean. Plus I should say that I am still slightly bleeding so I am not interested in this either but I feel that the kisses are short and quick. I don't know that I can explain this but I just feel neglected. I am jealous of watching DH and his little princess and listening to him tell her how beautiful she is and what am I?, chopped liver. I hope I don't sound stupid but I hoping that someone will understand and tell me how to deal with it. I will talk more about other issues like poor milk supply and taking supplements to help. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Sometimes, I wish I could just keep the tissues around......... lol

Back with the blues

I am finally back online and happy about that. The walls are starting to close in on me but I am still okay with it. I know that J needs to bake just a little more. I am going stir crazy but I will deal with it. I did get to get out today and pay the house note. I know that forking out that much money would not usually make someone happy but for me, it was a vacation. While out, I got to buy J a cute little outfit that says Daddy's lil sweetie. Awwweee, I can hear you saying it. I have been reading alot of new blogs today and I tell you, there are more and more of us out there that I had no idea about. whew!!! I have alot of digging to do. haha. I am feeling a little under the weather with all of the allergy stuff going on so I think I am going to take a Tylenol cold and go lay down. Thank you so much for your emails and support. It really does keep me company during the day.

It has GOT to get better

Well to add to the bed rest blues, I have developed some kind of allergy and sinus party in my head. This is so not cool. My internet is down in the living room and so I have to go the J's nursery (which I really don't mind) but the only thing that is in there for me to sit on is the rocker and it is not that comfy when trying to type. Oh I so know that I am whining and I am not okay with that. I wanted to have the perfect pregnancy with the jaw dropping water breakage and the OMG honey, it's time. Well, that is not going to happen and it has me all down.

I think I am just having a blue day. I will back tomorrow and hopefully be in a better mood.

Bed rest blues

Hello out there in blog land. After a very eventful 2 days and a not so happy doctors appointment, I have been put on bed rest for the duration of my pregnancy. You see I started having pains and I spoke in general of them in the last post but you see, come to find out they really were contractions!!!! Oh yes I said the bad word. I also found out that I am 2 cm dialated. Now for those of you that are pregnant, let me just tell you, pay attention to your body. I mean hell I have been thru this once before and granted, it was 14 years ago but still, I didn't pay attention and it could have been alot worse.

Dr. is letting me stay on bedrest at home so I am trying to stay calm. I have had a steriod shot today and will have another after the NST scan tomorrow. I am so tierd from the events, I am going to bed but I will be back. Hey if you get a chance or you get bored. Drop a line, I love talking to all of you.