First for those of you reading and wondering…. Still no spike but I am undeterred as this is cd19 and they say it can still happen up to cd20. The big O that is…… I am trying not to dwell on it.
I thought that for today I would talk about something that makes me extremely happy… My son. He just turned 13 and boy that made me sad. He really is a great kid. We have been thru so much as a family and he is probably the strongest of all of us. He really is great. Here he is at about 3 years old…..
Yes, we are huge NASCAR fans and were die hard Earnhardt fans. So you can tell in the picture that we are telling Jake not to touch the car. Lol. The face gives away the thought of … “what, I wasn’t just touching the car, you didn’t see me, you can’t prove it” lol.
Here he is at my husbands neice (really cousin but DH is an only child and so she is a neice. Lol) Doesn’t he look nervous. Haha. Cute though….
This is a picture of him and DH in the car on the way to Washington D.C. Boy was that a long drive from the coast. I have funny pictures but I can’t find them right now. Still great looking (both of them).
Here he is with me in a picture. I took him to have pictures made and he did great. At the end, he told the photographer that he needed a picture with his mom. Awwwww. I had to do it. Even if I wasn’t ready to do it. Haha.
This is the most recent picture of him. This was taken while he was doing a shadow at mine and the DH's employment. This is my boss. Jake was his shadow. It was great.
It is times like this that I don’t get the whole “infertility” thing. You see Jake was an “accident” when I was 16. We weren’t trying but it happened. After we had Jake, I took BC for about 4 months and then they said that it would take about 6 months to get pregnant so we wanted our next child close to Jake. Well as I am sure you can tell… that never happened and here we are 12 years later. I hate it for him and I bear the guilt of him not having that. I feel as though he blames me, just as I think my DH does as well. Oh yeah, they tell me that it is okay and that we are all fine and that it will happen in God’s time and you better believe that I know that. I am sure of it. I know with our history that it would not have been good for us to have another child. But I feel that we are in a good place and all I can do it pray that God will give me the miracle of child. I still say the prayer and believe…….
“If you can believe, all things are possible.” Mark 9:23
I thought that for today I would talk about something that makes me extremely happy… My son. He just turned 13 and boy that made me sad. He really is a great kid. We have been thru so much as a family and he is probably the strongest of all of us. He really is great. Here he is at about 3 years old…..
Yes, we are huge NASCAR fans and were die hard Earnhardt fans. So you can tell in the picture that we are telling Jake not to touch the car. Lol. The face gives away the thought of … “what, I wasn’t just touching the car, you didn’t see me, you can’t prove it” lol.
Here he is at my husbands neice (really cousin but DH is an only child and so she is a neice. Lol) Doesn’t he look nervous. Haha. Cute though….
This is a picture of him and DH in the car on the way to Washington D.C. Boy was that a long drive from the coast. I have funny pictures but I can’t find them right now. Still great looking (both of them).
Here he is with me in a picture. I took him to have pictures made and he did great. At the end, he told the photographer that he needed a picture with his mom. Awwwww. I had to do it. Even if I wasn’t ready to do it. Haha.
This is the most recent picture of him. This was taken while he was doing a shadow at mine and the DH's employment. This is my boss. Jake was his shadow. It was great.
It is times like this that I don’t get the whole “infertility” thing. You see Jake was an “accident” when I was 16. We weren’t trying but it happened. After we had Jake, I took BC for about 4 months and then they said that it would take about 6 months to get pregnant so we wanted our next child close to Jake. Well as I am sure you can tell… that never happened and here we are 12 years later. I hate it for him and I bear the guilt of him not having that. I feel as though he blames me, just as I think my DH does as well. Oh yeah, they tell me that it is okay and that we are all fine and that it will happen in God’s time and you better believe that I know that. I am sure of it. I know with our history that it would not have been good for us to have another child. But I feel that we are in a good place and all I can do it pray that God will give me the miracle of child. I still say the prayer and believe…….
“If you can believe, all things are possible.” Mark 9:23
4 comments:
what adorable pics!! just curious.. do you have a good RE who you have been seeing, because if you can ovulate sometimes on your own thats a good sign...
Adorable pictures! Happy birthday Jake! I love that Mark verse at the end. It is so true. Believe in God and keep praying, He won't take you anywhere His grace and mercy can't lead you out of.
Kim
he's a cutey!!
Happy birthday to Jake! Your story just goes to show the whole unpredictability of getting pregnant!
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