Long time no hear!!!!!!!

Hello to everyone out there in blog land. I am so sorry that I have not been on here for a while. I have been litterally trying to avoid the pregnancy talks. The ultrasound that is strangeling me is in the morning at 9. This is the one that will determine everything. My husband just pointed out as I type this tonight, we have about 14 hours until our lives are changed. I sit here and watch TV and I struggle with the thoughts of doom. I am fine. I feel fine. Are my breast as tender this morning as yesterday morning? Are my nipples as dark? Is the nausea better or gone today? I deal with these questions every day. I don't have the same sense of gloom as before with the miscarriage 6 months ago. I really don't. I have a good feeling about this baby. I just have those fears. I have to remember that solum verse in II Timothy.... For I did not give you the spirit of fear but one of a sound mind.... I will remember that and carry it with me into what I am sure will be a sleepless night. I will remember what my wonderful blogger buddy has reminded me of so many times.... I am preparing my field for my harvest. My baby!!! (okay so I can't leave DH out, it is his baby too. lol)