Loss

So I haven't really blogged and now looking back, I should have. It might have really helped me get thru this time. I could have vented to people who knew what was going on with me. I am at this point tierd. I am finally at the end of the misscarriage process. We started to loose the baby on 3/21/08. I knew something was wrong while at the doctors appointment on 3/10/08 when he said that there was just a sac. He started talking funny and sending me off for blood work pretty quick. His tone was funny but he was acting as though everything was fine. Again, looking back, I just wish that he would have told me what was going on. I sat on pins and needles for a week just waiting for the next ultrasound only to be told that this was not a viable pregnancy. I was suffering from what many woman suffer from. A, "blythed ovum" yeah, I'm not stupid but I needed him to talk to me like I wasn't just finishing up medical school.

Believe you me, I am very interested when it comes to my PCOS and if you were to ask me about counting days and mucous testing and ferning and ovulation and leutal phase, I could tell you anything but you throw a word out there like that and I don't know what it means.

I do know that this is the 2nd miscarriage in 3 months after 12 years of trying to get pregnant with no success and I don't know the cause of the first one but now I have a "blighted Ovum" (Thank you to Anne).

maybe I should have done this long ago but I just needed to step back in and feel better by venting. I have archived the pregnancy blogs as it makes me sad to look at.